How Could

“I’m a relationship guy,” you say 

Just not with you 

The thing you don’t 

All I can think these days is 

How could you how could you how could you 

We weren’t a relationship 

We weren’t even friends 

We were an accident 

a freak collision

That shouldn’t have happened 

But for something that shouldn’t have been 

I feel as if I’ve lost something 

I took a shot of rumple the other day and my friends dedicated it to you 

“fuck him” 

They cheered 

Then I spent the entire night pretending 

out of control spinning

Why do I feel as this hurt was matriculasly planned out 

Instead of you just being thrown into it too

How could I have known what I didn’t know? 

How could you have acted like you didn’t know what you already knew?

And how could ignore what I saw coming?

The headlights flashed and I 

Stared into them blankly 

As I got run over 

Accident or not 

I was left on the side of the road 

Carnage 

Wondering how could such an accident 

Leave me with so much damage 

All those nights 

All those lazy days 

All those cups of tea

Dancing on rooftops 

“Will you stay with me?”

“That’s a loaded question” 

You say 

As you pull out your tooth brush 

How could you 

All for not even a goodbye

Was anything real? 

Was anything true? 

“Im a relationship guy,”

You say 

Just not with you

Not with you 

How could 

How could 

How could you