Mothers

The world impresses on us early 

That little girls are desperate for fathers

Yes

Desperate for a man to show up 

To show them 

how to love 

We read about these relationships all the time 

Girls without fathers are labeled as girls with 

“daddy issues”

And we pity them. 

But what about little girls who grow up with mothers who didn’t know how to love 

Mothers who leave

Mothers who forget to call 

Who trade their kids for men 

We don’t have a label for that 

No snarky nickname 

Because mothers don’t leave? 

Bc mothers are supposed to love ? 

Because we place more importance on men ? 

So no you weren’t a girl with daddy issues 

Didn’t cry for a father figure you tried to find in

older- meaner- men 

You fell on the other spectrum 

Watching your mom pick everyone else over you 

Time and time again

Watched as you begged her to love you

And how she always chose someone else

Making you feel

Worthless

You wanted your mothers love to you scar you 

A big blinding trace that shouted

 “I was here” 

“she was loved”

“she was noticed” 

You wanted it to hurt you with how 

intense it was 

Instead it didn’t leave a mark at all

Which in the long run

Hurt much worse 

Left you much more susceptible to 

Worse love

Love that won’t give 

Love you have to beg for 

Love that leaves only gaping wounds  

Everywhere 

The kind that scream

“I was tossed away” 

“They hurt me as I lay there”

Love that didn’t care

But you knew 

Every time you asked him for more

It was not him you were fighting for 

You wanted your mothers love to feel like water in the desert 

Instead it left you dry 

And every time 

Without a goodbye